Dec. 22, 2014: A Year Later

It’s probably going to take more than one blog post to catch up on the last year…

To be honest, I didn’t want to look at this blog or think about this blog for a long time because the thought of it reminded me of the whole ECT experience, which upset me.  In a nearly PTSD-flashback way.  It’s winter again, it’s dark out in the morning, and it just reminds me of how disoriented and forgetful and out of it I was, and I hate it.

In short – would I do it (ECT) again?  Hell no.  Not ever, not even if it had worked.  The memory loss was too severe and too long-lasting to be worth it.